Cody's Baby Blessing

We had Cody's baby blessing on Saturday Nov. 5th it was awesome and we had so many family and friends there.  Cody was blessed by my Dad and was so happy to have my brother here from AZ also.  I am so grateful for all the blessings in my life. loving life...

Our little boy...

We are so happy to have little Cody with us.  Even with the lack of sleep it is still worth it.  We did have a scare this last weekend with a high fever and having to be in the hospital for 48hours. I was so afraid after waiting so long for my baby to come that Heavenly Father would call him back. I am so glad for the peace that came over me to be strong and know that everything was going to be okay. I am so glad for a husband that helps me in everything he is truly my rock.  I love him so much and can not imagine my life without him.    I can not tell you how grateful I am for knowing that Heavenly Father is looking out for us and that he will comfort us and bless us.  I am so thankful for all the prayers that went out for us and am grateful for such awesome friends and family. Life is wonderful....

Our little boy is finally here.....

Our life has officially changed for the better.  I love it.  On Friday the 2nd I went into the hospital because of some little things that I was feeling.  I thought my water had broke, so I go into the hospital and they told me that I had not broke my water.  So I am laying in the bed ready for them to come back from talking to the doctor and going to tell me that I am going home and the nurse comes in and says that the doctor said that she wants to induce me.  I asked why and she said because my blood pressure is way too high.  She asked if that would be okay to do and of course Scout said yes right away and I just layed there not knowing quite what to think.  I did say yes because it is best for the baby.  Well the Labor was very good I got the epidural and was fine.  I had a few times were I did not feel good but for the most part it was great.  Scout was awesome and helped keep me calm and I had a couple of friends with me that helped me out by feeding my dear husband and helping me stay calm also.  So around 9pm on Friday night they told me that I was ready to start pushing which believe me I was feeling like I was ready.  So the nurse came in and told me that I would probably be pushing for about a hour or more due to the fact that this was my first kid.  So mentally I was ready and I did not care I was just so happy that the Lord helped my body to not have to have a c-section.  So the nurse told me to push I did and all of a sudden the nurse told me to stop and not to push anymore.  I thought what I want this baby out.  Then the nurse told me that if I pushed one more time then my boy would be here without the doctor.  So yes I held in until the doctor got there and on my second contraction I pushed and he was out.  The doctor was amazed and I was too. Cody was 6pounds 4ounces and was 19inches long.  It was so awesome to finally see our little boy.  I really am so grateful for the Lord and helping me through my pregnancy and through the Labor and delivery.  I am so grateful for a great husband and family that love me and support me. I am just so blessed in my life it is great.  Scout and I have both waited so long to be parents and it feels great to have our little boy finally here. I truly believe that the Lord knows when things should and should not happen for people and I am so grateful that he knew for me in my life.   PICTURES WILL BE POSTED SOON...

The big day is coming...

Went to the doctor this morning and the doctor said that I am 1cm dilated.  I asked her so am I going to be that way until 40weeks?  she just looked at me and kinda smiled and said nope you are 1cm now but you could be in labor a hour from now.  I thought that is crazy.  She said don't be alone too much without a car because I could go into labor at anytime.  I thought on the way home " wow the time is actually almost here".  It's amazing how I have waited so long to have a baby and it is so close now. I am so grateful to be able to have this change to finally have a baby.  I cant lie though I am afraid of Labor now that I think about it on a daily basis but I know that my hubby will be there and the Lord will be there to help me so I really am grateful to experience this.  Loving life.

My awesome family all together...

An Awesome Husband...

If any of you have a great husband like mine you know how lucky you are.  My hubby is who keeps me from going crazy because he has such faith that everything is going to work out and that we are going to be okay.  Even when I am about to have a mental breakdown then that is when he puts his arms around me and gives me this great hug and tells me how much he loves me and everything will be okay. I also have a hubby who will get up early and make me some breakfast because he knows that I don't feel good lately.  He is great about cleaning up and not having me do much of anything.  I tell him quite often that if he had his way then I would just sit around and do nothing until this baby is born.  He then will smile at me and say "What is wrong with that?".  Of course those that know me well knows what is wrong with that when it comes to me.  I have a husband who will take me  on a walk every night just so that I can feel like I get my exsersice in everyday.  I have a husband that is willing to work two jobs for me so that I can be a stay at home mom with our dear baby boy that is going to be born here soon. I am so grateful for a husband that is giving me a gift that I have wanted for so many years....my dear baby boy...I know the Lord helped him with this gift but my husband was willing to be with me through everything that we had to go through to get this little boy.   I am just so grateful for my husband and all he dose for me. He is the love of my life and I am so glad that I found him.  And I am glad we are going  to be together forever and ever.  I am one lucky girl..

LIfe is Awesome

I woke up the last few weeks sick, sick, sick.  Then this last Sunday I woke up and was not sick. I felt really good and it was such a weird feeling.  Then Monday I woke up sick again and all my pains came back from the last few weeks.  I think quit a bit about that one day I had were I actually felt great and not sick and in pain for once.  what dose that have to do with Life being Awesome you may ask?  Well it has a lot to do with it.  Heavenly Father knows that we have to learn from good and bad so even though I have been going through some bad days Heavenly Father gave me one day were I felt better.  That I think is why life is awesome because even through there are hard times in life there are times were it is not so hard and you get relief.  I have related it to a lot of things in my life lately.  It has helped so much to keep in perspective that we have a Father in Heaven that loves us and he wants to help us have a happy and productive life.  We also though have to learn the pains of what life brings and we need to just keep in mind that he has a plan for us if we just trust in him then it will all work out.  I am not saying that on those days that I am so sick and have the worst headache and my body hurts so bad because my baby is  dropped and getting ready to come that I don't think why??? and cant this baby just come already???  But I try by the end of the day to think this to will end and everything will be totally fine. So the next time you are in a situation that feels like it is never going to end and you just ask why??? and Can this end already???  Try to keep in mind of what Heavenly Father wants you to learn from this time in you life.  Pray to him and he will help you through it and find relief.  Life is Awesome....

The joys of Life changes....

Life just keeps on changing and how nice is that sometimes and not so good sometimes.  Lucky we have not had a lot of bad changes in our life.  We are still living in Orem and really enjoying it.  It is nice and quite.  Scout is now working for a security System company called Vivint he really likes it and really is learning a lot about the product.  I am a stay at home wife and starting finally to enjoy it and not miss working so much.  We are very excited that we only have 5weeks to go until our little boy is going to be here.  I am having a hard time sleeping at least two hours at a time but I think it is my bodies way of getting ready for the baby. I am so grateful for all the love and support that we have from our family and so glad that I have a wonderful husband that loves me and works hard for our family.  Life is truly awesome not matter what happens.

Doctors, Doctors, Doctors

Have you ever been so excited for something to happen and you wait for years and years and finally one day it comes true.  You are so excited because it has finally happened.  Then you get into it and it just is the hardest thing that has ever happened????  So that is how my pregnancy is to me.  I have waited years to have a baby and throughout the years I have seen many of my friends and family get pregnant and I know it is not that easy but some of them make it seem so easy. Well I started out my pregnancy with a lot of doctor apt and ultrasounds.  The second ultrasound I found out I was having twins.  It was awesome I loved the idea of having two little babies.  Then I went for my first ultrasound with my OB and found out that one of my dear babies had died.  I was so sad and it felt weird to be that sad considering I did not even know my little baby yet I just felt such a loss.  Well I knew that the Lord knows what he is doing.  Then I started to have problems breathing and I went to another doctor and he told me that my heart was not working correctly and that I should consider not having anymore children, He was afraid that I would have heart failure during labor. So I had to quit my job and cut back on exercise so that I would be fine.  So two months later I go back to the Heart Doctor and I had a miracle happen the doctor said that my heart is like so much better and he dose not worry about really anything anymore. So I was so happy because that meant I could have another baby in a couple of years.   So at this point I thought that all my problems would be over and I have smooth sailing until Labor.  Well I went to my regular check up about two weeks ago and I told them I had been really sick having a hard time seeing without blur so they ran some test and come to find out that I am having early signs of preeclampsia / Toxemia  and I am boarder line gestational diabetics. So now I am on the diabetic diet and I have to cut back on the salt also.  So what dose all this have to do with wanting something and then it becomes a trial???  Well I have learned that the greatest blessings in life come with the greatest challenges also and I have learned to trust in the Lord so much more in the last 8months than I ever have before.  Life is wonderful no matter how much trial it throws at you.  Just enjoy the good things. And remember your blessings everyday.

Changes....

Everyone hates change so I hear.  Lately I have loved all of the change of my life.  My parents are moving that part I don't like but the fact that my mom and dad have a income again and it is a great job makes me love the change because I truly believe that they deserve so much.  They have done so much to help me throughout my life that they deserve something great. Then there is me being pregnant well sometimes I don't like that change but I do love the change of my life when this dear child that I have been waiting so long for comes to earth.  I hated that change that Divorce brought into my life but the fact that I have a wonderful husband now and that I love him with all my heart tells me that the change was good in my life and I love that change.  So as I look at my life I am like most people and hate some change but to tell you the truth as I look deeper I have seen so many blessings come from the changes in my life and I know I will continue to see blessings from more changes that will come.  Life is awesome and I try really hard to look at the bright side of it so that I will live this life happy and not worry about all the changes that constantly happen in my life. 

Choices, Choices, Choices

So I know as everyone goes through life they make choices everyday. Lately thought I feel as if Scout and I are drowning in choices lately. We want Scout to get through school but we found that the best Electrical Schools are in another state.  So what dose that mean?  Yes it means moving but now the choice is where to move?  How is Scout going to get a job from out of state?  So I think about all the choices that we have to make I have realized that the Lord will provide. Scout is trying hard to get a job to support us and then we will deal with the school. I know that the Lord will help us through this part of our life and we will be fine. It is hard to go through all the changes that could happen but we are working through the stress. We are excited to know what is going to happen and which way the Lord wants us to go.  As long as we are together and we listen to the Lord then we are going to be fine because we both have faith that the Lord knows what is best for us and what we need.  

11 weeks to go

As I did my wonderful walk this morning.  I had a thought....I have 11weeks  until I am due for my dear baby boy.  I thought how the time has flown by.  I all of a sudden got this image in my head of my little baby boy being out in t he world, it made me so happy.  Not only because I can finally jog agian (even though that did cross my mind) but more so that I will finally get to be a mommy.  I read on the internet that first time mothers get really scared for the birth and to be a mom.  I can honestly say so far that I am not afraid of either YET.  I know that it will come but I am just so excited to have my little baby here that none of the other stuff bothers me much right now.  There are a few other things that I am happy about with the baby coming.....1) I get to have my balanced body back.  I have spent a lot of time not falling the past couple of months and especially the past few weeks that I would love to have the balance back.  2) I can jog again:  I am so excited to get out there and jog again and start racing again.  I have really come to love being in 5k's or even 10k's and everyone that knows me knows I love relay races and ready to start triathlon training.  3) I get a dear sweet little boy that I can take care of and raise him with Scout's and my Heavenly Fathers help.  Those are just a few things that I thought about on my walk this morning.  I am so blessed in my life.  I do have my bad days but I really try hard to make my bad days into good all that I can. 

Life...

How great is Life?  As I was going through some pictures from my past this morning I looked at them and am totally amazed on how much I have learned and grown since I was just a little girl.  I looked at High School pictures and wished I was the same size now as then...LOL...But knowing that I was not doing it really healthy so I am glad that I have grown up and learned that exercise and eating right and not DIETING is the best way to lose the weight and keep it off.   I also learned how to not care what other people think of me.  I think back when I was in High School and I wanted to be the prettiest and the smartest and I wanted everyone to like me and think good of me.  I have grown up enough to know that it is just not going to happen that way and that is okay.  Not everyone has to like me...Golly why should they??? I don't like everyone I meet.  So now I live my life with the guidance of the Lord.  I have also learned in the last few years that I am not PERFECT.  I have made some mistakes that I wish I never made and some I even made more than once but I have learned that through the Atonement I am able to be whole again and oh so happy.  I think one big thing I have learned is you can love again.  When I was married to Steve for almost 9years I never thought that I would love anyone else ever again.  So when we got divorced in 2008 I was so sad and it was really hard for me to move one.  I always thought why me???  What did I do??  Will I ever love someone again like I loved Steve???  Well I can tell you that I did.  I meet Scout and knew that I loved him so much and that the Lord gave me the gift of love again in my life. And as Scout and I prepare to get Sealed in the Temple this next year I can't help but be so grateful for the blessing of him in my life, And being the love of my life.   The biggest thing that I have learned though through looking at pictures is that the Lord has his own timeline in things.  I remember for years yearning and begging the Lord to send me a child.  And every time I prayed really hard for it then I would find out within weeks that someone in my family was pregnant.  Why?????  I would ask myself all the time.  I know now why.  IT WAS NOT MY TIME YET.   I think of how my life would be different today if I had gotten my prayers answered back then and to tell you the truth it would not have been good for me in my life at the time to bring a child into this earth.  The Lord knew that and I am so glad that he did.  I now am pregnant finally at 31 with my first child and a wonderful husband that is going to be a wonderful father and I can honestly say I am so happy.  I know back when I prayed so hard for a baby before that I was not truly happy and I know that the Lord wants me to be happy.  I love my life and I am so grateful for my family and friends that have been there for me throughout the years....

Times are a changing!!

Have you ever had a moment in your life were you realize your life is about to change?  I had one of those yesterday, I got up to do what I do everyday which is exercise first thing in the morning and realized that I could not really move.  I was having such sciatic nerve pain that I could not get out of bed right away.  So I stretched and stretched then I realized that I am just not going to be able to go walking like I normally do everyday.  So I get up and get on the computer to find a email from some pregnancy websites say that the problem I am having is the baby sitting on my nerve.  And they were for sure the the pain would go away AFTER labor.  LOL..I laughed to myself thinking well that just dose not do I don't want to quit exercising till this baby comes.  So I got up this morning and did some stretching and realized that I could do that and feel a whole lot better.  But in that moment yesterday it hit me that I am now in my third trimester and I only have 13weeks to go until another big change is in my life.  But I am so excited and I know just like how I go about exercising I will be able to adjust. 

Adjusting...

So after 6months I have been pregnant I have realized finally that I don't have the energy I used to...LOL..I know some of you are just thinking DUH!!  But I promise it has taken me quite a while to figure that out. Those of you who know me very well know I am not a resting person.  I try to get up before the sun comes up to exercise and try to get everything that some people would do in three days into one.  But I have found in the last couple of weeks that I just can not do that.   So what have I done?? Well I have gone to the Lord and my husband for what to do.  And what has come out of it?? I have cut exercise all together on Saturday  and I have to take a nap once a day until the baby comes and I get my body back in a sense.  I have tried to do this the past week.  I have had a very hard time at it but I have found that the days that I do it I feel so much better so I am going to start another week on Monday and will let you know how it goes...All I have to say right now is I cant wait until this baby comes....LOL

My Life

I was walking this morning at 5am ( I know some might say I am crazy to do it at that hour) and I was walking my last part of my 5.1miles listening to my church CD and realized that I am so blessed.  Scout and I have had some problems with him having a job lately but I thought I have have food to eat, a place to live and I have some money coming in to cover my basic bills.  So maybe we don't have  a lot of money to go out to eat or just go shopping but we do have money to pay our car so Scout can look for jobs and visit family and friends.  I think so much that a lot of times we concentrate so much on the stuff we don't have that we forget about the blessings that we do have.  I know that I have been guilty of that more than once in the last few months.   I always tell Scout when you get a job we are going to feel rich because we have had so little of it lately, but now I look at my life and think:  "I am so not poor at all".  I have a awesome Heavenly Father who loves me, a wonderful husband who loves me, family and friends who love me and I have the blessing of a baby on the way to be part of my family.  I am not poor at all.  so I am making a goal that the next time I feel down about my situation I am determined to feel not poor. I know that as I really look at my life that the Lord will help me look at life totally different.

The Joys of Moving

We are moving this weekend to Orem Ut.  I am not really excited right now because I hate moving.  I know it is the right thing to do because then Scout dose not have to commute so much but man it drives me crazy to move.  But I am getting over it and am very excited to move nearer to my brother and his family in Provo and very happy to be nearer to one of my friends that I have been friends with since I was like 10.  Life is full of changes and sometimes I feel like I am just trying to keep up but I am happy and have a great husband and a wonderful blessing on the way so I am go with that and trusting that the Lord knows what he is doing with me. 

Wonderful News

So went to the Heart doctor this last week just to get checked out.  I walked into the doctors office so nervous.  All I have had since I have been pregnant has been bad news whenever I go to the doctor.  He checked me out and then looked at me and said that my heart is a little fast but that is a good thing because I am pregnant.  It felt great because my heart has had a problem pumping earlier in my pregnancy.  Then he told me that he is not worried about Heart Failure anymore also.  Do you even know how relived I was to hear that??  I have been dealing with all the news of me not being able to have another baby and now to find out that I can it is wonderful.  I can now do what normal pregnant woman do including more exercise.  It makes me so excited.  And I found out that I can exercise up to my 9th month of pregnancy so I am even more excited for that.  I am so grateful for the Lord and how he has helped me.  I am so grateful for my dear husband who has supported me through all of the hard days.  I am so grateful for the rest of my family and friends for helping me and supporting me through it all.  I am now looking forward to the future a lot less stressed and excited to have this baby come to our family.

Hard Stuff

I have been going crazy about not being able to really exercise hard since I have been pregnant.  Don't get me wrong I am so happy to have a baby on the way but when I go out to exercise I am so used to really getting down and burning some calories.  And you just cant do it when you are pregnant.  How crazy dose that make me????  Really! Ask my wonderful dear husband that has to hear about it like everyday before we go to bed but I am glad that I only have  3 1/2 months and then I can get out there and get in shape again.   But the Lord and great friends that let me vent have helped me through this hard thing for me.  So I will get through it and be totally fine and I will grow from it.

Walking with my dad

I absolutely love going walking with my dad in the morning. We are going to be moving next month and I am going to miss it so much. We talk about lots of different things. This morning my dad told me that he likes that I go the hard way in the walks. We go up hills instead of going the opposite way and make the hard uphill downhill. I told him the reason I do that is because it drives me crazy to not be able to jog so I have to make my work outs worth it. I love to exercise and I know I am totally CRAZY for saying that but it helps me in so many areas in my life. It helps me not gain a ton of weight and then after this baby comes I can lose weight faster. It helps me stay energized. Helps me stay focused on what I need to do and be in life because when I walk I think about my life and what needs to change of make better. I am already planing how many races I am going to be doing next summer. I am so excited to get back to racing. I plan to do my first Triathlon next summer along with 5k's and 10k's. I am actually starting at thanksgiving and Christmas and doing a couple of 5k's to get started. So if you are exercising or even thinking about it go for it and I promise it will make you feel so much better in all areas of you life.

True Friends

In the last couple of months I have really had some awesome friends help me through some hard times. I love it when we can sit and just chat about everything. And when it got really hard for me in some ways then I was so grateful for their love and support in things that I really have had a hard time with lately. My burdens feel so much lighter than they were even a few weeks ago. I am now excited for my life and thank god everyday for the friends I have.

Today is Wonderful

What a wonderful day today.  I got to go out on my daily walk this morning in the rain which dose not bother me too much at all.  I love going out there and just listening to my music and just clear my mind and relive stress. As I was walking today I could not help think about how much my life has changed in the last two years.  I went from never wanting to get married again to being married and going to have a baby in a few months.  Life is great. 

Mothers Day

How wonderful Mothers day is.  I have always loved this day when you get to remember what your mom has done for you.  I have always loved sitting in Sacrament at church and listening to the Primary children sing about mothers and how much they love him.  This mothers day is different for me though.  I have gone through years of not having children and not knowing if I was going to have any in this lifetime.  And this year I am pregnant with my first and probably last child.  I am so grateful that the Lord has heard my prayers and that he has intrusted me with one of his little ones.  I am so grateful for a husband that is working with me to being a at home mom and that he cares more about family than he dose about things of the world.  I am just happy with my life and were it is going and so excited to finally have a little one of my own.

My thoughts Lately....

As I woke up the past two days I have had some confusion to a extent.  I have been busy with school and doctor apts for quite a while now and all of a sudden I wake up and school is done for a month.  I thought laying in bed this morning what do I do with my time.  I still have  ALOT of doctor apts but no school  do you realize how much time that leaves me.  I don't have very many friends that I hang out with because I am not good at getting close to other people.  I tend to get close to someone and then back off.  I know it has a lot to do with my last marriage and some things I went through but now as I sit and ponder what to do it is amazing to have so much free time.
  I have decided that as I am working on the whole getting close friends thing again I am going to work on different things that need to change.  I am working more on spiritually growing and being happy no matter what life throws at me.  I have a AWESOME husband that I can really be open with and we have a great relationship.  That is a good feeling and I love him more and more everyday.  I have also decided to try and slow down and just enjoy what I can control and let go of what really frustrates me in my life right now. 
 Last thing to work on for awhile is to get over the heartache I feel for probably never being able to have another child.  I have thought about this one a lot.  I am  woman who has waited now 11years to have children.  And now that I am able to do it I have doctors telling me that I should not have another one after this because of my heart problem.  Do they even realize how long I have waited to have children? ???  Of course not they just know what is wrong with my heart and that it could really do some damage to me.  I have tried to come to terms with it the last few weeks but it is so hard for me.
I have always imagined like 3-4kids running around my house.  It is okay though I will make it through and I am so greatful for the dear little one that I have. I have decided that I am going look at the good side to only having one baby..

1.  The Lord loves me and I know that 1 baby is just as good as 10.
2. I get to be a mom.
3. I get my figure back and never have to worry about losing it to pregnancy again.

So I know the third one is kinda on the selfish end but I am so grateful that the Lord trust me with at least one baby.  

Health during pregnancy

So the past few months have been crazy.  about a month into my pregnancy I was having a hard time breathing and so I went to the doctor.  The doctor told me that it could be a blood clot in my lungs so he had me go and take a x-ray.  The found nothing, then he had me go in and do a heart ultrasound.  Well they found that in the heart ultrasound my heart is not pumping correctly enough so that all the air that is needed for the baby and me is getting through.  The doctor told me that the baby is getting enough air it is jut me.  Well he had me cut 2classes in school and then quit my part time job.  I was so upset because I really wanted to bring in some extra money so we could get ahead.  But my dear husband told me that my job is to grow a healthy baby and to stay off of full bed rest.  It was so hard because I found this all out about 3weeks after finding out that one of the twins I was carrying died and work and school were the only thing really that was keeping me sain. As I look back now cutting back was the best idea that the Lord could have had me do.  Because if I did not cut back I could have lost both of the babies.  The doctor has told me that I can exercise again as long as I am careful.  I still have more and more problems every day breathing but I feel better now that I can take my time with things.

I am pregnant...

JUST WANTED EVERYONE TO KNOW I AM PREGNANT ITS GREAT...