Choices, Choices, Choices

So I know as everyone goes through life they make choices everyday. Lately thought I feel as if Scout and I are drowning in choices lately. We want Scout to get through school but we found that the best Electrical Schools are in another state.  So what dose that mean?  Yes it means moving but now the choice is where to move?  How is Scout going to get a job from out of state?  So I think about all the choices that we have to make I have realized that the Lord will provide. Scout is trying hard to get a job to support us and then we will deal with the school. I know that the Lord will help us through this part of our life and we will be fine. It is hard to go through all the changes that could happen but we are working through the stress. We are excited to know what is going to happen and which way the Lord wants us to go.  As long as we are together and we listen to the Lord then we are going to be fine because we both have faith that the Lord knows what is best for us and what we need.  

11 weeks to go

As I did my wonderful walk this morning.  I had a thought....I have 11weeks  until I am due for my dear baby boy.  I thought how the time has flown by.  I all of a sudden got this image in my head of my little baby boy being out in t he world, it made me so happy.  Not only because I can finally jog agian (even though that did cross my mind) but more so that I will finally get to be a mommy.  I read on the internet that first time mothers get really scared for the birth and to be a mom.  I can honestly say so far that I am not afraid of either YET.  I know that it will come but I am just so excited to have my little baby here that none of the other stuff bothers me much right now.  There are a few other things that I am happy about with the baby coming.....1) I get to have my balanced body back.  I have spent a lot of time not falling the past couple of months and especially the past few weeks that I would love to have the balance back.  2) I can jog again:  I am so excited to get out there and jog again and start racing again.  I have really come to love being in 5k's or even 10k's and everyone that knows me knows I love relay races and ready to start triathlon training.  3) I get a dear sweet little boy that I can take care of and raise him with Scout's and my Heavenly Fathers help.  Those are just a few things that I thought about on my walk this morning.  I am so blessed in my life.  I do have my bad days but I really try hard to make my bad days into good all that I can. 

Life...

How great is Life?  As I was going through some pictures from my past this morning I looked at them and am totally amazed on how much I have learned and grown since I was just a little girl.  I looked at High School pictures and wished I was the same size now as then...LOL...But knowing that I was not doing it really healthy so I am glad that I have grown up and learned that exercise and eating right and not DIETING is the best way to lose the weight and keep it off.   I also learned how to not care what other people think of me.  I think back when I was in High School and I wanted to be the prettiest and the smartest and I wanted everyone to like me and think good of me.  I have grown up enough to know that it is just not going to happen that way and that is okay.  Not everyone has to like me...Golly why should they??? I don't like everyone I meet.  So now I live my life with the guidance of the Lord.  I have also learned in the last few years that I am not PERFECT.  I have made some mistakes that I wish I never made and some I even made more than once but I have learned that through the Atonement I am able to be whole again and oh so happy.  I think one big thing I have learned is you can love again.  When I was married to Steve for almost 9years I never thought that I would love anyone else ever again.  So when we got divorced in 2008 I was so sad and it was really hard for me to move one.  I always thought why me???  What did I do??  Will I ever love someone again like I loved Steve???  Well I can tell you that I did.  I meet Scout and knew that I loved him so much and that the Lord gave me the gift of love again in my life. And as Scout and I prepare to get Sealed in the Temple this next year I can't help but be so grateful for the blessing of him in my life, And being the love of my life.   The biggest thing that I have learned though through looking at pictures is that the Lord has his own timeline in things.  I remember for years yearning and begging the Lord to send me a child.  And every time I prayed really hard for it then I would find out within weeks that someone in my family was pregnant.  Why?????  I would ask myself all the time.  I know now why.  IT WAS NOT MY TIME YET.   I think of how my life would be different today if I had gotten my prayers answered back then and to tell you the truth it would not have been good for me in my life at the time to bring a child into this earth.  The Lord knew that and I am so glad that he did.  I now am pregnant finally at 31 with my first child and a wonderful husband that is going to be a wonderful father and I can honestly say I am so happy.  I know back when I prayed so hard for a baby before that I was not truly happy and I know that the Lord wants me to be happy.  I love my life and I am so grateful for my family and friends that have been there for me throughout the years....

Times are a changing!!

Have you ever had a moment in your life were you realize your life is about to change?  I had one of those yesterday, I got up to do what I do everyday which is exercise first thing in the morning and realized that I could not really move.  I was having such sciatic nerve pain that I could not get out of bed right away.  So I stretched and stretched then I realized that I am just not going to be able to go walking like I normally do everyday.  So I get up and get on the computer to find a email from some pregnancy websites say that the problem I am having is the baby sitting on my nerve.  And they were for sure the the pain would go away AFTER labor.  LOL..I laughed to myself thinking well that just dose not do I don't want to quit exercising till this baby comes.  So I got up this morning and did some stretching and realized that I could do that and feel a whole lot better.  But in that moment yesterday it hit me that I am now in my third trimester and I only have 13weeks to go until another big change is in my life.  But I am so excited and I know just like how I go about exercising I will be able to adjust. 

Adjusting...

So after 6months I have been pregnant I have realized finally that I don't have the energy I used to...LOL..I know some of you are just thinking DUH!!  But I promise it has taken me quite a while to figure that out. Those of you who know me very well know I am not a resting person.  I try to get up before the sun comes up to exercise and try to get everything that some people would do in three days into one.  But I have found in the last couple of weeks that I just can not do that.   So what have I done?? Well I have gone to the Lord and my husband for what to do.  And what has come out of it?? I have cut exercise all together on Saturday  and I have to take a nap once a day until the baby comes and I get my body back in a sense.  I have tried to do this the past week.  I have had a very hard time at it but I have found that the days that I do it I feel so much better so I am going to start another week on Monday and will let you know how it goes...All I have to say right now is I cant wait until this baby comes....LOL

My Life

I was walking this morning at 5am ( I know some might say I am crazy to do it at that hour) and I was walking my last part of my 5.1miles listening to my church CD and realized that I am so blessed.  Scout and I have had some problems with him having a job lately but I thought I have have food to eat, a place to live and I have some money coming in to cover my basic bills.  So maybe we don't have  a lot of money to go out to eat or just go shopping but we do have money to pay our car so Scout can look for jobs and visit family and friends.  I think so much that a lot of times we concentrate so much on the stuff we don't have that we forget about the blessings that we do have.  I know that I have been guilty of that more than once in the last few months.   I always tell Scout when you get a job we are going to feel rich because we have had so little of it lately, but now I look at my life and think:  "I am so not poor at all".  I have a awesome Heavenly Father who loves me, a wonderful husband who loves me, family and friends who love me and I have the blessing of a baby on the way to be part of my family.  I am not poor at all.  so I am making a goal that the next time I feel down about my situation I am determined to feel not poor. I know that as I really look at my life that the Lord will help me look at life totally different.