Doctors, Doctors, Doctors

Have you ever been so excited for something to happen and you wait for years and years and finally one day it comes true.  You are so excited because it has finally happened.  Then you get into it and it just is the hardest thing that has ever happened????  So that is how my pregnancy is to me.  I have waited years to have a baby and throughout the years I have seen many of my friends and family get pregnant and I know it is not that easy but some of them make it seem so easy. Well I started out my pregnancy with a lot of doctor apt and ultrasounds.  The second ultrasound I found out I was having twins.  It was awesome I loved the idea of having two little babies.  Then I went for my first ultrasound with my OB and found out that one of my dear babies had died.  I was so sad and it felt weird to be that sad considering I did not even know my little baby yet I just felt such a loss.  Well I knew that the Lord knows what he is doing.  Then I started to have problems breathing and I went to another doctor and he told me that my heart was not working correctly and that I should consider not having anymore children, He was afraid that I would have heart failure during labor. So I had to quit my job and cut back on exercise so that I would be fine.  So two months later I go back to the Heart Doctor and I had a miracle happen the doctor said that my heart is like so much better and he dose not worry about really anything anymore. So I was so happy because that meant I could have another baby in a couple of years.   So at this point I thought that all my problems would be over and I have smooth sailing until Labor.  Well I went to my regular check up about two weeks ago and I told them I had been really sick having a hard time seeing without blur so they ran some test and come to find out that I am having early signs of preeclampsia / Toxemia  and I am boarder line gestational diabetics. So now I am on the diabetic diet and I have to cut back on the salt also.  So what dose all this have to do with wanting something and then it becomes a trial???  Well I have learned that the greatest blessings in life come with the greatest challenges also and I have learned to trust in the Lord so much more in the last 8months than I ever have before.  Life is wonderful no matter how much trial it throws at you.  Just enjoy the good things. And remember your blessings everyday.

Changes....

Everyone hates change so I hear.  Lately I have loved all of the change of my life.  My parents are moving that part I don't like but the fact that my mom and dad have a income again and it is a great job makes me love the change because I truly believe that they deserve so much.  They have done so much to help me throughout my life that they deserve something great. Then there is me being pregnant well sometimes I don't like that change but I do love the change of my life when this dear child that I have been waiting so long for comes to earth.  I hated that change that Divorce brought into my life but the fact that I have a wonderful husband now and that I love him with all my heart tells me that the change was good in my life and I love that change.  So as I look at my life I am like most people and hate some change but to tell you the truth as I look deeper I have seen so many blessings come from the changes in my life and I know I will continue to see blessings from more changes that will come.  Life is awesome and I try really hard to look at the bright side of it so that I will live this life happy and not worry about all the changes that constantly happen in my life.